I have recently moved to Omaha, Nebraska to be a 2-year missions resident at a large church here. Transition is never fun, and in my experience change is usually scary. I didn’t want to leave my small community back home in Minnesota. I didn’t want to leave my parents and my 4 younger siblings. I didn’t want to leave my wonderful circle of friends and move to a strange city. I didn’t want to have to move in with a family I had never met. But I knew these were all things that just had to happen.
During my first few days here, I began to realize that maybe this wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Maybe it would be a wonderful experience and maybe I would actually enjoy myself instead of just doing it because I “felt called to do it.” My host family turned out to be incredible, the church I will be working at is exceptional, and the city of Omaha might actually be not as awful as I thought it would be. But nevertheless, when I think about stepping into ministry here, I feel completely and utterly inadequate. I suddenly feel like I know nothing– what makes me qualified to minister here? I don’t know what I’m doing! (Part of my stress may come from my tendency to expect myself to know how to do a job before I’ve even been taught, which, I know, is ridiculous).
During Sunday service, the pastor used Ephesians 3:20-21 in his sermon. The next day, that verse popped up on YouVersion as the verse of the day. The next day, at our church staff meeting, we watched a video sermon in which the pastor used that same passage. That evening, at a church service at another church in Omaha, I was thinking about how weird it was that this verse keeps showing up. I said to God, “if this is a word for me, make it pop up one more time.” The pastor closed the service using that same passage again.
Take a minute to read the passage in Ephesians that I have included here:
A Prayer for the Ephesians
14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every family[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing. But his power is made perfect in my weakness and he is capable of more than I can ask or imagine. All I can do is give myself to him fully. All praise and honor to him.